Hi everyone! Been a long time not see any updates from me, right? It's about end of the year so I'll be recalling all the things happened back in 2021. this might be full in English; hope you mind about it. :)
January was so blue; it was a bad opening of the year. Deal with broken-heart, many sad songs, cried over man I actually loved the most (still slightly missing him). My world stopped for a while atm, then I think to cope with that; be productive. participated in some workshop and courses. learn new things and fix myself. meet my close friends. try to forget him. start liking k-pop men.
Encourage myself to apply some internships and volunteers, surprisingly accepted in 3 out 5 place I applied. then meet some online friends (thankfully still catch up till now). first try being a content writer even actually not that very good experience but that's okay. Well, you might name me dumb or what but I was trapped in someone's attention. I was so hopeless romantic, small things really mean to me. I was taking it too hard but at the end I’m fully realize I just lonely, I don't into him. At the end of June, I got anosmia; can't smell or taste, symptoms of COVID-19. quick recovered.
Never forget how July
surprised me; got my very first full-time job as an elementary school teacher!
meet new people, trying to adapt with that (it was so hard, often wondering
"would everyone catch with me?", learn how to be a good teacher
(every day). meet many people and get many lessons too ;) but damn, again,
trapped in someone's affirmations. LOL. and same, don't get into him LUCKILY.
I can't stop being grateful for every moments happened in this year but these four months more surprising me! I accepted in a company I manifested the most ;), surrounding by more more good people, and many pretty things happened. But, life isn't about happiness. Burnout, stress, anxious (internship, work, and college at the same time really drain me) and realize that I'm an introvert af (not having much energy to socialize with people I don't close with, getting tired of meet people, I enjoy being alone SO MUCH). I often withdraw from society. Hope I get better next year.
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2021 taught me a lot. How I be grateful to every small things, how I sincerely do every kind things because you know when we do it with whole of heart, thousand good things will come to us. I'm so glad with myself right now, I don't have to be guilty to other people; I can reply message whenever I want, I can say no if I don't want to, I can ignore if I don't want to go). I really love myself right now. I'm also so happy for being a teacher, teach every students from understand nothing to get something from me. I hope I can always teach them for a long time. ;)
I'm also enjoy my time being 24/7 k-pop fan! Thank you boys, you guys really made my day. Hope we can meet someday. ;)
I don't think so much about love-life. I love being alone. But from my previous experience, it makes me have trust issue. Also.. my standard..... okay... Na Jaemin. (jk plz don't hate me).
Well, I'm not sure you would read this till end, but I hope next year bring us many good things and good people! Please stay healthy and happy no matter what. ;)
this year may not be a very good year isn't it.
BalasHapusNice blog btw
It is! Thank you anyway, hope next year will bring you more more happiness! ;)
Hapus